Sigh........

[DianaB]

Well......I finally have the house all to myself!! Dae Lynn and her family left for Branson on Wednesday for a vacation with Damon's family. His Dad is paying for everything for them so they couldn't hardly turn him down. I guess Dae Lynn called Glen yesterday and someone ran into the side of her car. She has a really nice Avalon....it's several years old but still drives like a dream. UGH........

Glen left this morning to go on his dive trip to Beaver Lake. Feyn's family is all going because they are going to get certified.....all except Tammy and she'll have to wait until after the baby's born.

I originally thought that I'd spend the time relaxing and enjoying the peace and quiet but I've since decided to try and get some things done while everyone is gone and spend one day shopping or getting out. I invited Amy but she couldn't go so Jaci and I were thinking about going but I'm not sure if that's even going to work out. We'll see.

I got a call yesterday from Jaci and she was crying so hard that I couldn't make out what she was saying so I told her that I'd be right there. It ends up that she is pregnant but her hcg numbers aren't rising like they should be. She went to the dr on Mon. and had a blood test and sonogram and went back on Wed. The sonogram only showed a sac but nothing else so it didn't look good. She had called to find out what the hcg showed and called me after finding out that the numbers hadn't gone up as much as they should have (they should have doubled and they were far from doing that.) So she has been cautioned about what to do if she starts bleeding or cramping. I guess that they've been trying for awhile and just a while back she found out that her progesteron is low and was taking medicine. A lot of her friends and family are having babies and she's ready to have one of her own too. I know that her hormones are crazy right now but it's so hard to have her hurting.

THEN.......while the technicians were doing her sonogram they were talking to each other and Jaci became concerned. It turns out that her uterus is heart shaped. There are two upper lobes with a seam in the front. It turns out that that can cause miscarriages, infertility, or premature labor. So it looks like she's got quite a road ahead of her. Of course.....there's the off chance that it won't cause problems at all. They told her that it was most like inherited........but with sonograms being fairly modern we don't have any way of knowing if anyone else has had it. I did have a grandmother that had many miscarriages and my Dad was premature......but her other son was born at term and healthy. Needless to say, Jaci is VERY upset......Mama too. It's so hard to see your daughter hurt. It's a good thing that things worked out where I'm staying home this weekend because otherwise I'd have been canceling things to stay home with her. During this time my Baby needs her Mama. My heart just breaks for her.

[Janet]

How long to you get the place to yourself Diana? I'm home alone and will be until sometime this evening when the guys get off work. I haven't even dressed yet.

My heart is aching for Jaci. I hope she doesn't end up having problems with fertility. I've been through all that and it's not fun at all. Feeling so worthless at times wondering what I ever did for God to let this happen. Even now....late at night I shed a tear now and then that I never got to feel a baby grow inside me. Oh...I wouldn't trade my son for anything in the world, but still to this day I mourn the fact.

I will keep her in my prayers that she won't have any more problems and that she'll have all the beautiful babies she wants.

[DianaB]

Thank you, Janet. Right now I'm encouraging her to not be worried about it. She's just beginning her journey and who knows.....it might not be as bad as it sounds. We'll worry when we know that there is something to worry about.

My Mother and one of her sisters had trouble getting pregnant. There was never a reason for why. I know that my Mom was trying to get pregnant when I was in high school but for whatever reason it never happened. With all of the meds my Dad was on it was probably a good thing. However, I would have loved to have had a sister!!

Janet, I'm home totally alone until sometime tomorrow, Saturday, Then Dae Lynn and the kids come home. Glen won't be home until probably late Sunday. If Jaci feels up to it (she's having trouble with morning sickness) we're going to go to some flea markets in a nearby town that has several. She enjoys doing that and it will help take her mind off of her problems.

[Janet]

Flea markets sound like a good idea. I'm not much of a shopper, but flea markets always have something hiding...just waiting to be found.

[DianaB]

Yep.....always looking for "treasures"!!! Jaci's MIL, Jan, is going to go with us. Glen and I used to double date with her and her husband. She's a very sweet woman and I'm happy that she's going with us. It should be a fun afternoon.

Jaci's still having morning sickness so it's hard to believe that the pregnancy isn't a good one. I guess we'll wait and see. She has another dr's appointment on Wednesday.

[Blueyes]

Maybe Jaci's levels will come up! I pray this baby hangs on, and you have a new grandchild soon!

[JJJ]

Hoping this baby makes it. With that heart shape uterus the baby must know she has lot's of love to give.

I know most women yearn to be pregnant but it's crucial not to stress because stress is a big factor in many miscarriages. I don't know how old Jaci is but I'm sure she's got many years ahead of her to pop as many babies as she wants.

Even premature babies as little as 22 weeks are healthy. So much advance technology help on becoming a mom.

[DianaB]

Jessica.....Jaci's just turned 20....so yes, she has a lot of years ahead of her. I think that her greatest worry is that Amy had 4 miscarriages and the last two she bled very badly. In fact, the last one we almost lost her because she lost so much blood. It was scary for all of us. However, Amy was further along than Jaci is so hopefully that won't be an issue.

Jaci's doing good at the moment. She's having problems still with mornng sickness so it's just hard to think that the pregnancy might not be good. We'll know more on Wednesday when she goes to the doctor. I'm praying that the numbers are WAY up and that everything looks good.

I've been where she is......waiting to find out about how your pregnancy is going. It's really, really hard to not be worried. I think that Jaci is trying to stay busy so she's not worrying.

[JJJ]

She is so young. I will be sending positive thoughts and energy for her and the baby's well being. I remember those morning sickness, they were awful. Prenatal vitamins made me so sick. I would take them at dinner while having a full belly. Too many vitamins can be overwhelming. I learned in anatomy class a few years back that morning sickness means her baby is healthy. I can't quite remember why but it must be true because mine came a few weeks early and were healthy little chubbies. Another great tip is to eat plenty of beans. Some charro beans or refried beans tacos are great.

[Janet]

I know what it's like to be young and wanting a baby so badly...took me to age 34 for my son to enter my life. Hopefully...the pregnancy is still vital and a new baby will be anxiously welcomed within the year. What an exciting time for Jaci...

[DianaB]

I'm anxious to go with her to her doctor's appointment tomorrow. I really hope that she gets good news but I'm worried.

[Janet]

Okay...it's Wednesday and you know we are all on pins and needles worried about Jaci. Please let us know something as soon as you can. I haven't been able to quit thinking of her and what she is feeling.

[gja1000]

Ditto Janet.

[DianaB]

Jaci called last night and she and Nate want to go alone to the doctor. I can't tell you how disappointed I was and am but I understand. I'm on pins and needles waiting for her to call. It should be soon I'd think.

[DianaB]

I just got a call from Jaci.......and there's really no news yet. The doctor is calling them "the Mystery Couple of the Week"!! I guess that the sonogram showed that the egg sac had grown......but not enough for as far along as she is.......and they thought that they saw something in the sac but it was too difficult to really tell. The doctor said that possibly she isn't as far along as was originally thought or she could still miscarry. Jaci has to go back to the doctor next week and they'll check again. A blood test wasn't taken this time and I don't understand why because that would have told quite a bit......Oh well......it's not bad news or quite good news!! I guess that we'll wait another week!! I feel a little better about the results today then I did last week because there seems to be a glimmer of hope this time.

[Janet]

And a glimmer of hope is better than none! I will keep her in my nightly prayers that this is a true pregnancy and that the little one is growing stronger and stronger.

[DianaB]

Thank you, Janet!! I'm much more hopeful than I was last week!!

[JJJ]

I'm glad theirs hope that's always good. Positive thoughts and energy going to all of you.

[Janet]

What day this week does Jaci go back to the Dr.?

[DianaB]

She goes back on Wednesday again. This time they'll do a blood test so we'll know a little more. Emotionally I think that she's doing better.....but I can see that she's preparing herself for disappointment that way if everything is not alright it won't be so hard because she's already prepared herself. I can understand her doing that and it hurts to see. I know that things are going to work out whether with this pregnancy or the next.

[Janet]

I'm keeping her in my prayers Diana.

[DianaB]

I got a text from Jaci and she has to have a D & C on Monday. I haven't talked to her because I figured that she probably needs some time to let it soak in. Poor girl. I know that she's tried to convince herself that the pregnancy wasn't good but to actually know for sure is hard. I've been there. It's times like this that my Mother's heart breaks.

[Janet]

Oh no....how sad. My heart just breaks for her.

[DianaB]

I got a text from Jaci this morning (they don't have good phone reception but texting can go through well) and the nurse called and her numbers have gone down. There is no baby in the sac so this is a blighted ovum. I know that she's taking it harder than she's letting on. However it's better to go ahead with the D & C and move on. I hope she doesn't have any problems getting pregnant after this. So sad.

[Janet]

There really isn't a reason for her to have trouble is there after the D&C is there? Sure wish I could give her a hug!

[gja1000]

Oh I'm so sorry Diana. I had a miscarriage with ny first pregnancy too. Since I was a nurse when it happened, I could rationalize that there was something wrong with the ovum, so it was OK. Of course I was disappointed though. After I got pregnant again and had Brooke, I was almost grateful for the miscarriage since if I hadn't, I wouldn't have had Brooke!

[lynne b]

Diana, I am so sorry to hear this about your daughter, i hope everything goes well with the D&C and when the time is right she is able to have a succesful pregnancy. Hugs to you and your family!

[DianaB]

Thank you, everyone. Jaci called and wants me to be in the waiting room with Nate during her D & C. I'll probably spend the day with her if she needs me. The doctor said that she can go to work the next day but her boss told her to stay home and take it easy. She works at a hardware store for really nice people!!

Gayle, I think finding out there was a problem from the start has helped her a lot. Having Nate's new nephews around and Tammy baby this fall will be hard on her.....but hopefully she'll get pregnant quickly!! I'm praying for that!!

[Janet]

I don't wish those feelings on anyone Diana. I know too well how I felt when others were having babies and I wasn't. My heat goes out to her. Like you....I hope she gets pregnant soon.

It's nice her boss is so caring and letting her take off another day just to be on the safe side. It will also give her another day to let out more tears.

[DianaB]

Jaci started bleeding yesterday. She sent me a text so I called her back to see how much and it's not much. The doctor said that they would still plan on seeing her Monday morning unless she started bleeding badly. She seems to be doing well.

[JJJ]

Oh Diana, I am terribly sorry.

I know your wishing for her to get pregnant soon but she is still so young. Maybe if she just enjoys life at this age and give it a few more years there will be a better outcome. Just a thought.

Will keep you all in my thoughts.

[DianaB]

I know that Jaci and Nate are young but they've been married for 2 years and they are ready to start a family. I posted more about how Jaci's doing on "What are you doing today". I think that they'll be trying again as soon as they can.

[DianaB]

I talked to Jaci this morning and I asked her how she was doing (which she's doing great!!). The doctor talked to her before she can home after the surgery and I wasn't in the room......but I guess she was told that she had a lot of tissue and she would have bled for weeks if she tried to miscarry on her own. I'm glad that she chose the D & C because now she can move on.......heal.....and get ready to try again. It's a scary thought to me that she could have had so much trouble because of what Amy's gone through.....Scary! Thank you, Lord, that things worked out so well!!!!

[DIANE W]

I am thinking of Jaci and hoping for a speedy recovery and that she will soon be well enough to try again for a baby.

[DianaB]

Thank you, Diane!! That's my wish too!! I wish that you could meet Jaci. She is just the sweetest girl!! I get so many compliments on her from everyone who meets her. She's very special!!!

[DIANE W]

Thats really nice that.... she sounds like my daughter Kayley, wherever we go people say to me she is such a lovely girl, and all her friends families love her too, she is, but then i am a little biased i think.

Its nice when kids turn out right, thats all you can hope for as you bring them up, that you love them enough and give them enough guidance and freedom to make good choices about their lives. It must be so hard when kids get in with the wrong crowd and get influenced in a bad way.

[judy]

I am so sorry Diana! Poor Jaci sounds heartbroken. I pray that this will be the last difficulty she has and that she becomes pregnant soon, and easily.

Remember how Angie struggled, then gave up,and then had adorable little Aiden!
I do hope that Jaci and Nate's situation is a lot easier, but there is always hope.

[DianaB]

I hope so too. I think that this was just a little bump in the road for them. If you talk around you'll find that there are so many that have experienced the same thing and gone on to have a healthy family. I'm anxious to hear that there's a little one on the way!!!