sooooooooo ANGRY!

[Lindsey]

I am absolutely steaming right now. I know my posts lately have been basically about one topic, but believe me after this, i won't think about him again. Things happen when you love someone, and they happen a lot when you believe they feel the same way. It's a kick in the stomach when they tell you they were sleeping with you when they had no feelings left. It's a bigger kick in the stomach when they dump you and two weeks later you miss your period.
So today I couldn't stop thinking about it but i promised myself I wouldn't talk to him at all. By the time I got home I was freaking out all by myself and as soon as my brother left the house I called my ex. He was drunk in a truck with all his friends on their way to a hockey tournament. I told him I wanted to talk to him when he was alone but he said just say it so I told him what's going on. He LAUGHED at me and in front of all his friends he said I couldn't be pregnant because of... well he put it in pretty vulgar terms. I cried, and he got off the phone to pay attention to his friends. I can only imagine what they're saying about me now.
I called my best friend from back home and bawled. She told me to go out and get a test while my brother was still out of the house, so I would know for sure and wouldn't ruin my weekend thinking about it. So I went, all by myself, and took a pregnancy test for the first time ever.
I'm not pregnant.
But I'm f-ing mad.

[cindy0721]

I'm so sorry.. .guys can be real jerks.... he obviously doesn't deserve you and by the sound of it you made up your mind about him as well. KUDDOS to you.... Like Marilyn said come down to TEXAS...lol....

[Tink]

Lindsey, I'm sorry he was such a thoughtless jerk to you. I know it's heatbreaking, but you deserve SO MUCH better than someone who would act like that! Please be good to yourself and try to be thankful you didn't waste more time on someone who obviously isn't good enough for you.

HUGS

[Lindsey]

I finally agree, I AM BETTER than that. For the past couple of days all I think about is what I don't like about him and his group of friends. Every night of the week can be drunk night. As soon as I moved here to be with him, I was always second place to his friends. He's different when he's with them, and I guess that's the important thing to him right now. He doesn't want to grow up, and I did bring up the possibility of pregnancy before and he basically said it would ruin his life. When I decide to date again I hope I find someone with a little more responsibility. Now I'm glad we broke up, I just wish I would have been the one to do it. If only I knew then what I know now.

[Mandy]

Cant turn back time, and cant changed what happend in the past, but you can move on, and change things for yourself.
You can do better then that, you deserve better then him, if i were in your shoes, i would never ever want to see that jerk again EVER!!
Forget about him Lindsey, shut that book, and "throw it out" go live your life!!

[Chandra Amaya]

I finally agree, I AM BETTER than that. For the past couple of days all I think about is what I don't like about him and his group of friends. Every night of the week can be drunk night. As soon as I moved here to be with him, I was always second place to his friends. He's different when he's with them, and I guess that's the important thing to him right now. He doesn't want to grow up, and I did bring up the possibility of pregnancy before and he basically said it would ruin his life. When I decide to date again I hope I find someone with a little more responsibility. Now I'm glad we broke up, I just wish I would have been the one to do it. If only I knew then what I know now.

I know exactly what you mean hun. My ex did almost the same thing. I'm so proud of you for realizing you deserve better. & don't beat yourself up over not being the one to end it. We all learn more about ourselves & the people around us through our life expierences. Just remember that someday it won't hurt as much, if at all, & going through the situation will help you to learn something about yourself & make you a stronger person in the long run. BTW congrats on not being PG. That jerk doesn't deserve a child :)

[rivermom]

Cant turn back time, and cant changed what happend in the past, but you can move on, and change things for yourself.
You can do better then that, you deserve better then him, if i were in your shoes, i would never ever want to see that jerk again EVER!!
Forget about him Lindsey, shut that book, and "throw it out" go live your life!!

I agree - the chapter has ended in this book and it's time for you to move on. The true colors of this guy is being seen. It's probably best that you are not pregnant because this would only open up a entirely new can of worms.

It's your time to learn from this relationship. You deserve great things and will find them.

[Lindsey]

He talked to me on MSN yesterday and apologized for being a jerk. He said I put him on the spot, and he was drunk, and he didn't know what to say. He admitted he didn't handle it well. I told him I was upset but I dealt with it on my own and the result was negative. I also told him I'm taking another test this Friday since I was sick yesterday morning and this morning. Hopefully I can just chalk it up to having the flu.
He also told me his parents still care, they told him I'm a nice girl and wanted him to say hi to me for them. Half of the hurt over this breakup was over losing them. I'm not at all close to my own parents and they just took me right in and gave me hugs! I'm glad they still want to be sort of in contact.
Finally, he saw my new big purchase and said "Niiiiice bike! How pumped are you??" So we had bike talk for awhile, and I told him I'm glad I got a sexier bike than him! I hope that one of these days it'll just go back to how it used to be before we dated... i want to be normal with him and with his friends. I wish I didn't get involved at all, we used to be so close.