I'm so sad.

[katcarasella]

I hired someone to drive all my Mom's stuff back from Calif and it came at 6:00pm
I knew this was gonna be rough, but I didn't expect all the emotions that are coming out. I now have the brass bed I used to sleep in and her favorite recliner.
Her car was towed here on the back of the truck, I was the only person that sat in the back seat of that car. Such sweet memories. I would've brought the whole house back if I could have. All her Waterford made it one piece, I'm gonna divy it up between my 3 daughters. I really can't part with anything else yet.
I now own 3 houses, one in Watertown, Wi where Pete and I spent his last year,
That's up for sale. Now my Mom's in Orange Hills, Ca. (for Sale) and mine here.
I swear it's feast of famine. I'd give all this up just to spend one day with them again. I'm sorry ladies, but this is too much to bare. I became a widow and an orphan in a 9 month period. I'm so very sad, I think I'd better seek some grief counseling, cuz I feel like I'm losing it, and all I wanna do is sleep. I'm so glad I have Maggie and Bailey to take care of cuz if it wasn't for them I'd never get out of bed. Thanks for being here for me, you've all been my thread to hang on to.

:ghug: Kathy

[Gwen]

Oh wow Kat, I'm new to this forum but I'm so sorry for your loss and for what you have had to go through. I couldn't even imagine. Hold onto your babies tightly, because they will help you get through this. They need you so much, as you're all they have. They can help be your light at the end of the tunnel. I think talking to someone is a good idea. Even if just to get your thoughts out so you're not bottling them up. *hugs*

[Chandra Amaya]

I agree with Gwen. Kids can sometimes be the reason we make it through and counseling definitely is a good idea. :bighug:

[Janet]

Kathy, I'm so sorry you're feeling so alone during this sad time. You do have your daughters, grandkids and your babies so please remember the joy that they bring you. Do you have a Pastor or someone that you can talk with? I do know it can be of tremendous help so I hope you seek it out. Of course we're here for you too, but sometimes it's just not the same as a physical hug where you can cry and release some of those feelings into someone's shoulder.

I will add you to my prayer list that you can find comfort.

[AngieDoogles]

Kathy, I'm so sorry things are so hard for you. I can't imagine the pain you must feel. Know that we are thinking of you and praying for you! :hug:

[Ponyup]

Kathy I'm so sorry you are going through this. I agree you need to find a shoulder to cry on. I recently joined my church choir & when I was going through my tough time & I would cry they would just hug. They wouldn't ask questions or prye, they would just hug, & it was exactly what i needed. Also you might be able to find some sort of support group for women who have lost their husbands or something. Try to stay strong....you will be in my prayers & if you need to talk feel free to PM me anytime.

[judy]

Dear Kathy,

You really do need someone to talk to, or a group. You deserve to be happy and it is sometimes too hard to go it alone!

We're all here for you. You are in my heart Kathy and in my prayers.

Love and hugs,

Judy

[Marilyn]

Oh, Kathy, you are going through such a tough time. Many of us can relate to losing a mother, but you have lost your husband, too, and don't know how I'd handle both so close together. Draw strength from your family and firends and do seek help if you believe you are in need.

Take care and know we are all her to listen and pray for you.

[Tink]

My prayers are with you Kathy. I'm so sorry for both your losses.

[katcarasella]

I really appreciate everyone being here for me, sometimes I just need to let it all out, and I can't with my daughters because I know it hurts them so much when I'm upset. I've always wanted to be strong for them and teach them to be strong independent women. I know I did a great job, they're the best.
I'm truly honored to call you Ladies, my friends!
Thank You :hug:

[DianaB]

Kathy, I'm so sorry that all of this has happened in such a short time. I think that grief counseling is a really good idea. There are so many things that we go through with grief, so many stages, physical and emotional.

Like the others have said, I too, wish that I was there to give you a hug and help you through this. If you need me for anything just pm me. :hug: