[Janet]

Saturday morning, my SIL stopped to check on Mom. She saw some blood and feces on the kitchen floor that Mom hadn't cleaned up. Mom just told her she was going to get it, but was resting.

I went to Mom's around 4 PM. She was just hanging up the phone when I walked in. She had been calling me to come fix her supper because she was just too weak. I fixed her supper and then started doing the dishes. Mom said that she thought she needed to go to the bathroom but didn't know if she would be able to make it. I got her up and we headed to the bathroom. She totally lost control about 4 feet in front of the bathroom and by the time we actually got in there, there was a blood and feces everywhere. I got her to her bed and cleaned her up and got her to the ER again. She's still there. She's decided she really doesn't want to come to my house....and I'm really starting to agree. We are seeing about home health care and I am calling to set up a meeting for when Mom is dismissed from the hospital.

Her hemo was 11.3 on Monday and dropped to 9.3 on Saturday. They gave her two units of blood, did a CAT scan of her head from the fall she had on Thursday and then did an ultra sound on her neck (cartroid arteries?) to see if there was any blockage causing blackouts. The Drs. seem pretty determined to find the cause of the bleeding because the blood is still in her stool. I spent the night with her in the hospital so I would be able to speak with all the Drs. as they made their rounds. Got to talk to all except for the one I wanted to speak with the most...the GI dr. I did leave a note for her with some questions so hopefully she'll get in and answer them. I finally left at 4 because I was just too tired and sleepy to stay any longer.

I told Mom today that she needs to be more open because we are searching for the best home health care and if she didn't cooperate...then she was going to have to go to assisted living or nursing home. It was so hard to say that to her, but I realized I just don't think I could handle it all with Mom at my house. I want it to be okay, but I just don't think it would. She wants me to do everything for her and I just can't....I need some time for me.

Seems I'm writing a book lately when I am able to post. Please keep us in your prayers. Thank you for all your advice Gayle....I love you and you don't know how much your knowledge and experience is helping. Lynne....thanks for calling today...I really needed someone to talk to.