[Janet]

Today I had PT and then went and had my eyes checked. Just can't believe a pair of glasses cost so much money. I had been saving up since April (after I bought my IPad2) and now will have to start saving for the next thing.

Made it to the hospital about 11:30 AM. Mom's speech is still bad and her motor skills are going downhill. She has trouble holding her head up for very long. We ordered her some lunch and then two minutes later she asked me if she had ordered lunch yet. When it came she took a couple bites, made an awful face and took it back out of her mouth. We visited and I could tell she was tired. The nurse and aide got her back to bed and she fell right to sleep.

She woke about 10 til 3 and looked over and saw me and said in a very happy voice..."Hi Janet....when did you get here"? I reminded her that I had been there for quite some time. She looked at the clock and saw the time then said..."oh my....I've never slept this late before, I've missed lunch". Again, I reminded her we ordered lunch but she didn't eat it. She didn't remember. I asked if she would like me to order her something and she said she wasn't hungry.

My heart is aching so bad and I cried all the way home. I got a text from my brat brother saying that a Dr. came in and scheduled a CT scan for tomorrow to see what damage there is. I'll be bringing the bus home tomorrow morning and then heading over to be with Mom. She's not remembering anything within a 30 - 60 minute time frame and longer. Doesn't remember if a Dr. came in or if anyone has visited her.

I think for the very first REAL time....I realized I'm actually losing my Mom. It's so hard and I just don't think I'll be able to stand it.