[Lindsey]

Judy, I know I am young enough to not have much time to reflect, but I know every single guy I dated before Scott was also unstable. I thought I needed to help them. I have never touched drugs in my life but every guy I dated except two or three were on drugs and most were also depressed. Before Scott, I dated Kyle who degraded me constantly and it took him hitting my dog for me to realize I couldn't do anything for him and I wasn't safe. I don't know what I was thinking staying with him so long. I think most of me felt worthless and I would feel worth something to help someone, like I wasn't just worth love alone. But I never dated any other kind of guy. I didn't even know I could until Scott came along.

I hope you can work through these feelings and know that you are very loved and what happened happened for a reason. You know if things didn't work out as they had, you would probably be missing the other blessings in your life, like your daughter and your grandchildren. God has a plan for us all, and it couldn't have happened any other way.