[judy]

Gary's doctor sounds wonderful, Gayle! Now to find the right meds....which they will! My prayers are with you both. My mom had an amazing doctor like that. I can understand how reassuring that can be.

Today is Annie's 4th birthday! She will always be my little baby though. Right now she is sitting on my lap so that Sophie leaves her alone. It is her birthday, after all! Later, she will have a special dinner. I did sing "Happy Birthday" to her, but I doubt that she had any clue what that was about.

Poor little Sophie curled up and is taking a nap. Nobody wants to play with her today. She is such an active little puppy!!! She is really cute, but she growls. Two of my daughter's Chins do that. I'm not crazy about it! I'm used to sweet little yorkies. I growl back at her.

I have been busy in the house. Summer is near, and I will be at the pool and with my friends, so I am getting things done before. I listed a lot of stuff on Ebay yesterday. So far, I sold one dress. I also packed up a big bag to take to the thrift shop. My pants and dresses are cleaned out. Next, I have to do shoes and tops. The drawers can wait. I realized that if I do a little bit at a time, it works better for me.

Jessie has not been feeling well for a while now. I wrote a long post about it last week, but it got deleted, and I didn't want to rewrite it. Her neck hurts, she has a weird rash, and just does not feel good. She also has a blockage in the carotid artery, which they told her not to worry about last year, unless it got worse. Her doctor sent her for another test. Her bp is very high also.

She has slowed down a bit, but not enough. She doesn't want to rest. She wants to take care of her 3 children. I really don't blame her, but at some point, she has to realize that if she gets really sick, she will be useless to the kids. Steve helps, but she doesn't want to turn it all over to him. The kids certainly don't want him to take care of them either! He has become a depressed, negative, cranky person. He needs a shrink badly, and probably some anti-depressants!

When she called me last week to tell me all about her health, I got so stressed out! We just finished with Brandon, and then this came up. Her life is just chaos central!!! I HATE drama! I called my friend Gail, who was sympathetic, but then reminded me that she has spent the last 3 or 4 years tending to her brother, who died of cancer, then his wife died, so now, she watches out for her mentally retarded niece. Allison lives in a group home and is in and out of the hospital for various things. Gail's sister went through breast cancer a couple of years ago, stayed with Gail,and has never gone back to here own house! Then, there is her mom, who is 96, and has dementia and CHD. She is finally in a home, and Gail tells me stories about her mom's antics which have us laughing till tears run down our faces! She is still a worry though for Gail.

So, I realized that nobody's life is calm or easy, and stopped feeling so sorry for myself! I am worried about Jessie, but she is going to all of the doctors she needs to see. This is unlike her, so I am relieved about that.