[Janet]

I'm sure you'll be running into quite a few people in the future that won't know of Gary's passing. It's really hard going over it so many times. You're right that it may be a bit easier on the 23rd, sometimes it helps waiting, sometimes it doesn't. I just pray it's not too hard for you, if it is..let someone know.

Gayle, except for the mattress and Gary's medical things...I do wish you'd wait some time for letting anything else go, including the tools. You may find out that you'll need them sometime. If there are 'doubles' of anything, it would probably be okay to let it go, but you really need to not rush into anything yet. As hard as I know it is, please wait for a little while yet, at least until the fall.

I wish I was there to help you. I wish I would have waited a bit longer instead of being rushed by my brother. There are still some things I think about that I wish I would have kept, but it's too late now. So my advice to anyone is to not rush into going through everything. Take your time.

Today I went to town for a few groceries. I get so upset at how much everything costs. Ricky loves Banquet Popcorn Chicken and now the bag is smaller, weighs less and costs more. I honestly don't know (between gas and groceries) how much more our budget can take. Leaves little for anything else.

I was going to start in on Ricky's room, but I'm just not feeling it today. I feel like my mind is running and I just can't seem to settle down. I want my Mom really bad today...my heart aches and I cry at the least little thing. Glad I'm here by myself so I can just let it all out.