Gayle, I think of you often. I can understand somewhat what you are going thru as my Mom is going thru the same thing. She still has extremely hard days even after a year and a half. Sending hugs to you.
I hope you can enjoy yourself on your trip.
Today I have done absolutely nothing except for one load of laundry. It's been rainy and gloomy here all day and I am ashamed to say that I haven't even gotten out of my p.j.'s