Thanks Gayle....my heart is just broken. So far, thank Jesus, they haven't made anything permanent, but I'm so frightened and spend a lot of time crying. I want to denounce her publicly, but know that is so totally wrong. I just feel I need to lash out and there is no way I can, risking losing him forever.
It's so hard and my heart just aches. I try to keep busy doing other things and thinking about other things, but the first quiet moment....that's what comes to mind. Last night I couldn't fall asleep until 3 am this morning. I'm just so tired of it all. I'll just keep praying and would appreciate all of your prayers too. I know in my heart of hearts this is a train wreck waiting to happen and my son will be the one suffering.
Serenity Prayer
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.
--Reinhold Niebuhr
Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will direct your paths.
Proverbs 3, 5-6