Brenda...I'd be interested in the book too and want to tell you if you ever need to talk - you have friends who will listen and I'm sorry you've been feeling bad. You're probably smart to wait till you feel better though. Dealing with depression must be hard enough without adding trying to quit an addiction.
I smoke........But I'm watching firsthand what can happen to people who smoke and get ill from it. My husband was diagnosed with emphysema not long ago and is now down to only 15% Lung capacity. He can't walk 20 feet without turning gray & no longer can work. From what the doctors say - it's just a matter of time before organs begin to fail at the levels he's at.
I hate that I still smoke.
I hate that I can't and don't
want to quit.
I think about quitting but some days I just can't even go 2 hours without a ciggy. I used to smoke very little but now ....lets just say about a pack a day sounds right ...maybe less. It helps being on the computer or busy because I don't smoke in my house but man - it's a hard hard habit to break -
I've smoked since 5th grade and found when I get down or feel stressed (& lately things have been super stressful) - the more I reach for a cigarrette. I keep telling myself to try the patches .....but I think I'd have to wear 50 of them & plaster them all over my body