[Janet]

Oh you poor thing! Tears fell as I read your post, I know what those feelings are like. I've said it before, many, many times. Search out some counceling to help you deal with all you're going through. I don't know what you have in England, but here in the states, there are free places to go if one can not afford it. Speak with your regular Dr. first, rule out any physical problems. Tell him what you're feeling and ask him to refer you to some one. Please don't wait.......

You'll find a lot of caring compassionate people here, please know I care. Let us know how you're doing and if you're able to get some counceling.