[DianaB]

What you are feeling is grief. There are many stages of grief and we tend to think that we can "just get over it" when we lose someone. I suggest that you either find a web-site that you can talk to others, find a grief counselor, or find a book about grief to help you through. Find a friend who is willing to listen to all that you have to say about your father and what you've been through and are going through. Don't try to hold in your sorrow, let it out. Enjoy the memories that you have of your Dad. He must have been very special to you.

I went through a miscarriage years ago and I felt that I was going crazy afterward. I found a little booklet that talked about the different stages of grief and I realized that I had several of the signs. I was able to buy a book that helped me a lot.

Please keep me posted on how things are going and if you need someone to talk to, I'm here.