I do not like the way my post sounded....
It's not that I don't love my husband, I do, but it's different now. We've had a rough 32 years, not all of it, but a lot. I just don't like all the mushy stuff that would make him think of S....E.....X...!!! I wish I could get over it, but I do most everything around here. After 32 years...it's just another job that I hate and another mess to clean up.
Please don't think I'm awful...unless one lived in my marriage, no one would have any idea how I feel. Yes, I've done counceling, like I always suggest, but it has to be a two way street. I can only help myself.