That's it!!!

I am calling Jenny Craig this morning. I am so ashamed at my body and the weight it carries. I cannot seem to lose any on my own so I am once again seeking help from Jenny Craig.
Years ago I belonged and lost over 20 lbs. I went down to a size 5 and being 5'7 people always told me I was too thin. Now, heck I've gone up 3 sizes in just a little over a year. I can't believe I just bought jeans that were a size 14.
I don't wanna be naked in front of hubby, not even myself. I feel guilty even tossing my fat ass upon to my horse.
So please wish me luck and each week I will be checking back in with my progress. I am hoping to do as well as Janet. (Very proud of you Janet!!)
I was told that having a hysterectomy tends to make you gain weight. Sure enough!!! But if I don't get a handle on it now my weight will only go up and I just can't bare to face that reality.
My self esteem isn't great as it is. And with my added weight I am now truly embarressed to even be in front of people. I feel as if they are thinking to themselves, "wow, she's a chunky thing aint she?"
My goal weight is to be 130. This am I weighed in at 158 lbs. (can't believe I am sharing this with you all, geez) That's what a total weight loss needed of 28 lbs. WOW, this is a lot.
Wish me luck ladies, I truly need your support.