We live in a society that doesn't allow us to take time and grieve. Probably being medicated just put off the grieving and so now that you're off of the meds you're still dealing with the loss. I know that when I had a miscarriage I found out that I was grieving over my loss. Nobody else felt the loss of this little life like I did. I thought that I was going to lose my mind and then I found a pamphlet on grief and everything in it fit what I was feeling. Do some internet searches and you'll find a lot of information on grief and the different steps that there are to it.
Here's a site that has some suggestions.
http://www.hns.org/CenterforGriefHea...0/Default.aspx
http://seniorliving.about.com/od/lif...a/grieving.htm
If you need to talk then send me a PM--Diana