[Lindsey]

I don't know really if it's fear of being lonely, but just what I'm missing if I'm not with him. I'm sure I'd have my own group of friends and stuff but I really do like his friends and I have fun with him and his friends when he's not in a bad mood. I don't love him, and I really don't think I've ever loved anyone, and don't hold out too much hope that I ever will! But we'll see what the future holds. For now I just want to do things that make me happy, and teach myself to not get so upset if what makes me happy doesn't necessarily make HIM happy. And I really hope that I can teach him how to be a good boyfriend too. I want him to know all the things he's doing wrong, so he's good to the girl he will end up marrying.