Kat, I haven't been on much myself. Take Janet's suggestion go volunteer at the hospital and hold those precious babies.. Kat, Mother's Day is here and I understand how your feeling, your mom passed recently so its fresh. I lost my mom and my MIL it does leave your heart with a big empty void. But you have your beautiful daughters and grandchildren. Think of them, and how sad they are when you are down.. Come on g/f your a tough cookie please smile. We all love ya....