Oh Shada what a hard day for you! You are a strong person, and you've gotten to where you are today through sheer determination. Because it was 26 years ago, I wonder: were you ever given the chance to mourn your two babies? In those days the thought was to just "put it behind you". Now, we know that that does not work. They were your children, and you need to go through all of the steps of grief. I had a still born daughter 13 years ago, and I understand your pain. There is a wonderful website that I found at that time where you can share your story, create a memorial and find other's who've been through the same thing. It does not matter HOW LONG ago your loss was, it's still important. Here is a link to the website if you are interested. I just went on there (to make sure it was still around) and they've really made it a great place. It was in it's begining stages when my Erin died, but it still helped me work through my grief.
{{{hugs}}} to you, hon. Do something special for YOU today. You deserve it!
http://www.angels4ever.com/