[Janet]

Exactly Sheryl!!! My marriage isn't horrible, it is just that some wouldn't put up with what I have put up with. But then again, maybe no one would want to put up with me either. I'm a perfectionist and that can be a rough life for a mate. Never being able to measure up. That's okay. We all have our limitations.

My first reason for marrying was to get out of my parents house at age 19. Secondly I did love him very much. But in my opinion now....I was still a kid. I really think there should be a law that at age 25 you can marry....LOL

As time went on I found other things I loved about him, great provider, very nice to all my friends...very supportive and a host of other things. The things that drove me away alot, is the everyday things..helping out around the house, fixing things when they need fixed, not waiting until it costs double to get it done, not really caring if he lived in a dump or the nice clean house I keep. Hoarding money for himself, while I would have to put things in lay-away. After all these years, no matter how much discussion was held, these things haven't changed. He always understood and changed for a week or so, but then back to what he did before. When you look at how his family was growing up... it's what he learned. Am I miserable...no, do I want to start over....no. I have other things in my life now, I've grown up since that 19 year old got married. I also, put money back (he doesn't know). You see, I'm not that naive little girl anymore and learned that we can make our own happiness, no one does that for you.

Yes, I still care about him, in love...no, not so much. But who's to say those feelings won't return. For richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, all those vows were taken before God and they mean something. I may complain, he may too for that matter, but we're still here, together, still a very good family. It's not so bad, but who's life would I trade it for?? No one that I know of is perfect. And who really knows what goes on behind closed doors. Even the ones we think are perfect, aren't....no matter what they try to lead us to believe.