The thing is, I don't want to take a break from the guy I'm with. I truely love him. He is the most wonderful, loving, kind, caring, smart, fun guy! We have a good time together, we have conversations, we don't fight every 2 mins (not that we never fight). My relationship with him feels so stable and comfortable. It has from the very begining. I am myself with him. In sooo many ways he is the best man I've ever dated! He is BETTER for me than my ex EVER was. My ex has a drinking problem for sure, a commitment problem definately, does not want to grow up, just wants to party and drink all the time, have a good time and spend TONS of money on all fun stuff. He went from owning a house with me, to moving in with a guy friend when we split. He just does not want responsibility at all.
I just want him out of my head and heart completely finally for good. I know it takes so much time, but its been over 3 years!! I did go to a counselor, I read every self-help book out there. I began to feel like something was wrong with me when I was not progressing by the book, so I stopped that and just started living normal life. I work, I go to school, own my own townhouse, have 2 dogs, a network of friends. I am NEVER not busy. He just creeps in when I least expect it, into my head that is. It just stinks!
