Oh Janet, I'm so sorry. I had a super miserable Christmas too
everyone I am close to was out of town, including the guy I have started dating. It was supposed to be our first Christmas together, we had so much planned, and I had to stay here for work while he went on to Florida...his home town is Orlando. So he and my best friend went together and I had to stay behind. everyone, including both of my kids, was gone. I was completely alone for the first time in my life...and I just wanted to die. I think I cried more in the last week than I have in my whole life. I ended up running over something that punctured my gas tank on Christmas eve, so my car was broke down the whole weekend, bill collectors calling me non stop, and I missed a once a year chance to talk to my mother on the phone (LONG story). So I was miserable. Maybe we should make plans to start spending Christmas together so we can make sure we both have a good time
oh...and the day you do get the courage to tell your husband to STICK IT..please let me know! I finally did it and I can tell you that even tho my financial situation has TOTALLY SUCKED....it was the best move of my life and deep down, I have never been happier. It really was the right thing for me to do...and I think he feels the same way. I shouldn't encourage divorce, because I know that it should be the VERY last resort...but once you reach that point, you have to do what is best for YOU and your babies.....sounds like you are pretty much there from what I have read here in the past. I wish you the best hun!!!!! I'm here if you ever need to talk!