I am single

[Lindsey]

I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my chest. I have known for quite a while it had to end. I have such a great time with Kyle, and that's what made it so hard. He has tried so hard lately to be everything I want. But it was too little too late. We've drifted apart, I don't have any romantic feelings for him anymore. I love his friends, I love his family, and he's one of my best friends, but I don't love him as a boyfriend. Even kissing him felt awkward.
We hadn't spoken much since getting back from Winnipeg. I had lunch with him last Thursday, and we didn't talk until this morning when he emailed me. He asked what's going on, if I'm mad at him. I said no. Finally I said we need to talk, and he said "I figured you might say that" And then he was angry - which I expected. He said he did everything for me and I didn't appreciate it, why would I waste his time, why did I go to winnipeg with him, on and on... I actually had to go to the bathroom and cry for a little while.
I went home for lunch and there he was on facebook, saying he doesn't want this to happen, everything in his house reminds him of me and he cried today for the first time in a long time... but he eventually accepted that it is what it is. He's going to miss me, and I'm going to miss him, but it's not working.
For him, I feel badly. I don't want to hurt anyone. For me, it's just relief. I think I've been "over" him for awhile, and okay with being by myself.