3 more months...

[Lindsey]

It's a little sad that I'm counting down until I'm BACK from Europe... but that's when I can start looking for a new job.

I'm sure I wrote about this here but I can't find it... in January I was given a raise which I was pretty upset with because it was a very tiny raise and I worked my butt off for this company last year, I gave up most of my summer working overtime on nights and weekends. When the manager gave me my new salary letter, she said "I think you got a little more, I think almost everyone went up a little bit" and I looked at the letter and agreed it was a little higher (but not much).

Last night I did my taxes. I was entering the form about how much money I made last year. I was surprised to see that my salary last year, EXACTLY MATCHED the salary I was offered for this year. I did not get a raise AT ALL. I mean, I did in the end because I went back and asked for more, but if I knew I was making the same I would have asked for more than that They KNOW how much work I do, they sign my time sheets every week. Apparently it was not enough to not only not get a bonus, but not even be offered a raise at all.

It just kind of sickens me. Obviously I'm not worth that much here

[Janet]

I'm so sorry Lindsey. It sucks feeling like you're not appreciated. Try to forget it for now....look forward to your trip and enjoy it........when you get back...then you can figure out what you want to do.

[Lindsey]

Thanks Janet. It turns out the other people they hired on contract are also making quite a bit more than me, which is another kick in the stomach. I thought they were making the same, or less, but I did find out at least one of them is making 6 figures I mean, they do have some more education and some more experience, but we are doing the exact same work. I could never dream of making 6 figures at all in my career! On top of that, free rent, free utilities, free food, free brand new furniture for their free apartments and houses, free flights back home to visit family... Obviously the company has money to spend, so why not appreciate their own employees? Last year our company made more money than ever before.

I'm not thinking too hard about it now but I'm going to just keep my eyes and ears open. I know I always have one comapny to fall back on, but I know there will also soon be an opening at another place that I'd like to go for! We've been talking about possibilities with Layla too.. we can't really afford doggy daycare, and I'd probably be worried all day about other dogs playing with her and accidently hurting her again. I think we're going to ask around and see if there might be someone in our town, a stay at home mom or something, who wouldn't mind popping into our house on weekday afternoons to express her. Maybe even the vet tech could do it during her lunch break for some extra money. I'm not sure yet! But we'll figure something out. Life has to be a little better than this!

[DianaB]

Sorry, Lindsey, that you're not happy with your job. It's not fair that they've brought in people that they're doing so much for and not paying the others as well. I'd be unhappy too. Maybe you need to let them know when you get back from Europe that you're going to be looking for a new job and see if they will pay you any better.

[Lindsey]

I don't think it's even really the money anymore, I don't think that a huge raise in pay would make me want to stay, because I will still go through the same crap and continue feeling stress! I would love to go home at 5:00 each day and not think about work again until 8:00 the next morning! Instead, I'm usually going home to continue working until I go to bed, or being stressed about what's coming the next day... I feel I'm not being the best person I can be in all areas of my life because everything is just centered around work. Layla deserves a better mommy who can play with her for a few hours or go for walks in the evening, and Scott deserves more attention too. And when I have kids, well they need to take even more of my time, because I don't want to be an absent mom. This company just isn't going to work for the lifestyle I want to have!

[JJJ]

Your a hard worker and it's going to be there loss.