I am so tired.

[katcarasella]

I cannot function anymore, I want to sell this house and go to an assisted living community. I don't have the energy to clean, bath or eat. All I do anymore is sleep and avoid people. God, I hate living alone!!!!
There, I said it maybe now I won't feel like throwing a chair threw the window to get this rage out of my system.
How can I have a Happy Mothers Day when my Mom is DEAD!!!
I AM SO MAD. I WANT TO SCREAM!!!!

[Chandra Amaya]

awww, Kat! I'm so sorry to hear you are feeling like this. I really don't know what to say, but I am here and I have shoulders to cry on and ears to listen. ALWAYS. *hugs*

[Chandra Amaya]

we love you

[Janet]

Kat, I hate that you're feeling good emotionally or physically. I'm ready to go to the assisted living place with you girlfriend...wanna be roomies?

I'm not making light of it all Kat, you know I love ya, but sometimes we get into these slumps and we have to do what I call 'practice' or 'fake' our way out of it. When we get in these slumps, their easy. But to get up, put on a smile, walk out the door takes work...so we have to 'practice' doing it everyday until it becomes habit again. Sometimes we just have to fake being happy until it no longer becomes fake, because we have learned to surround ourselves with people we like being with and it starts feeling natural again.

I'm right there with you right now Kat...the last week or so haven't been the greatest. So I go out in public and try to practice being happy again. I really do hate for you to feel this way, because I know how bad it hurts.

Love ya girlfriend!!

[Forgivenmom5]

I am so sorry Kat. You have had a really tough year and anyone would have trouble coping. I really had to push myself to go on sometimes during treatment. Pamper yourself for a while try to think of your wonderful daughters and grandchildren that love you and know that we love you very much here too. Let us know if we can help in any way.

[katcarasella]

Originally Posted by Forgivenmom5

I am so sorry Kat. You have had a really tough year and anyone would have trouble coping. I really had to push myself to go on sometimes during treatment. Pamper yourself for a while try to think of your wonderful daughters and grandchildren that love you and know that we love you very much here too. Let us know if we can help in any way.

Thank You Debbie, and please don't worry about me, How are you feeling today sweetie?

[katcarasella]

Thanks Traci and Janet......... I'm truly grateful, but I'm so tired of faking it ALL the time..
I finally have everything I've ever wanted or needed and I'm still miserable and I don't know why......My poor kids think I'm losing my mind and I love them so much it hurts.
Why can't I be happy with alll the blessings I have?
I'm so screwed up.

[Janet]

Originally Posted by Janet

Kat, I hate that you're NOT feeling good emotionally or physically. I'm ready to go to the assisted living place with you girlfriend...wanna be roomies?

I'm not making light of it all Kat, you know I love ya, but sometimes we get into these slumps and we have to do what I call 'practice' or 'fake' our way out of it. When we get in these slumps, their easy. But to get up, put on a smile, walk out the door takes work...so we have to 'practice' doing it everyday until it becomes habit again. Sometimes we just have to fake being happy until it no longer becomes fake, because we have learned to surround ourselves with people we like being with and it starts feeling natural again.

I'm right there with you right now Kat...the last week or so haven't been the greatest. So I go out in public and try to practice being happy again. I really do hate for you to feel this way, because I know how bad it hurts.

Love ya girlfriend!!

I guess I should proof read...duh!

[Janet]

I think with all the love you have to give, I'd go hold the babies at the hospital. How cool would that be????

[donna1990]

Originally Posted by katcarasella

I cannot function anymore, I want to sell this house and go to an assisted living community. I don't have the energy to clean, bath or eat. All I do anymore is sleep and avoid people. God, I hate living alone!!!!
There, I said it maybe now I won't feel like throwing a chair threw the window to get this rage out of my system.
How can I have a Happy Mothers Day when my Mom is DEAD!!!
I AM SO MAD. I WANT TO SCREAM!!!!

I know how you feel. I don't want to bath, nor go out of the house, ect. all I want to do is sleep. Don't want anyone coming to see me. We just must pray. I will pray for you and you pray for me. I do have a husband but he is in his own world. Love you Dear, please keep in touch.
Donna

[judy]

I am so glad you were able to share your true feelings. You have to feel it to heal it, but you don't have to feel it alone. We're here for you no matter what!

You know I love you. I'm hugging you right now.

[HALEY]

Kat, i hope your feeling better today, i'm keeping you in my prayers, we love ya girl. hang in there. sending you hugs!