I'm just so tired.....

[Marilyn]

Lately, I'm just soooo tired. There is nothing physically wrong with me. It's just that I'm tired. Tired of working so much, tired of the day to day. Laundry never ends. Cleaning & cooking never ends. I have to go to Corpus Christi for a meeting this morning. Zoe has had trouble with her ears for 6 months now, and three vets say she's fine. She's in my lap shaking her head right now because her ears bother her. I get so tired of giving her benedryl every evening and ear drops. I get to bed a realize I forgot and have to get back up. Sorry for complaining, but I'm tired of everything. Seems like everyone around me wants a piece of me. Marilyn I need you to help me with this. Would you do this for us. We need help, and you're so talented in this way. Please, isn't anyone else capable???

The American Cancer Society called a couple of nights ago asking me to send some fundraiser to 10 of my neighbors. I told them no, I can't, and the guy said we need your help. I told him EVERYONE needs my help. I'm strung out from helping people, and hung up on him.

Seems that everyone around me is relaxing watching TV, playing games, staying home with their baby, going to a trip somewhere. A dear friend called me yesterday and she is so envious of me. Of Me!! She want's a normal life again. The past two or so years she's been home, either pregnant or taking care of her little girl who will be 1 in August. I envy her. She gets to be home all day with her little girl. Go shopping when she wants, watch TV when she wants, work on crafts or whatever. I have NO time for myself. I still have a spa day my girls gave me. The gift card is two year old & I haven't found a free Saturday to go. Rex says I should go during the week but that means burning a vacation day.

I'm just having trouble right now finding the joy. I want to go on a vacation, but only have two vacation days left for the rest of the year.

I wanted to retire in a couple of years, but that dream is history now.

Please pray that I can find some joy.

[judy]

Marilyn, I will be praying for you. Joy comes from inside, as you know. You won't have a hard time finding it since you already have so much faith.

God is right there. Just give him all of your unhappiness, and surrender to him.
He will take you to joy.

[Tiramisu]

Marilyn, I'm right there beside you! I'll meet in half way and we can have a pity party! We just have to keep going through the strokes and know that we will be rewarded. I was supposed to have retired in February and that date has slipped off the calendar totally now. I have been so "tired of" lately that I've thought of finding homes for my doggies, leaving my husband, moving away from my kids, etc. I'm being careful what I ask for, but I need some alone time. Add in there that my daughter and 4 kiddos are staying with us while her husband's in Iraq!

And, next Wednesday will be a year ago that my Mom died and I'm "tired of" the hurt.

[DianaB]

Marilyn, I'm so sorry that you're feeling this way. I know that one of the first things I do when I feel like you is I start saying NO. Don't add any more to what you already have to do and even see if you can cut some stuff out. Try to find a little bit of time for yourself and just relax. Don't feel guilty about taking the time for yourself either, because you deserve it. Good luck!

[Blueyes]

I have a picture that says " Stress happens when your heart says NO and your mouth says OF COURSE, I'D BE GLAD TO"

Put the oxygen mask on YOURSELF first, ladies. Take a long, deep breath...then tell everybody to go jump in the lake

This stupid, burning Texas heat doesn't help, either

[Janet]

Diana's right Marilyn.....don't feel guilty for saying NO and wanting to take time for yourself.