My Husband had an affair with "my best friend"

I have been a member of 4 Women from the onset however I work so much I haven't really had a change to talk to anyone for quite some time. SOOOOO here goes.
I found out 1 year ago this month that my husband of 12 yrs. was having an afire with the person that I thought was my Best Friend. I was devastated to say the least. We talked about it all, she called me many times and talk to me about it. Both of them were telling me that it was over. But it wasn't over until April 14th of this year. Everyday I work on forgiving him. Because I really do love him. My life didn't really mount to anything until I married him. He is the funniest man you would ever meet. He is working very hard every day now to prove that he LOVES ME and WANTS to be with me. I don't make it very easy for him at times either. Sometimes the most innocent comment or remark can set me off or my mind to reeling. We are neither one young any longer. He is 62 doesn't look it at all. I'm gonna be 58 on 10/27 and lucky for me and good gene don't look my age either. And this friend was 45. Now ladies tell me me true. Do you know any man that would turn down the advances of a very attractive younger women? Hell no! But I do fault him for not thinking with the correct head, and going for it.
Since April each day gets better sometimes I feel like it was all a dream, then the B---- will call me then it all come back.
The reason I am posting this is I wanted to know if there is anyone of you out there that have gone through this before ? I don't have any friends to talk to now. So sometime I don't know if I'm making the right decision or not. You know how we are are. It's always easier to heal in numbers. What I mean is when things like this happen one really needs that special friend to talk with and hopefully tell them if they are doimg the RIGHT thing or not.
I kicked him out and begged him not to leave a million times. When after all was said and done. HE JUST WANTED HIS CAKE AND EAT IT TOO!.
So I've had a little to much wine tonight and as always too much time to think.
Thank you for for listening to me and I hope that someone will respond to my post.

[Janet]

Originally Posted by Carole

I have been a member of 4 Women from the onset however I work so much I haven't really had a change to talk to anyone for quite some time. SOOOOO here goes.
I found out 1 year ago this month that my husband of 12 yrs. was having an afire with the person that I thought was my Best Friend. I was devastated to say the least. We talked about it all, she called me many times and talk to me about it. Both of them were telling me that it was over. But it wasn't over until April 14th of this year. Everyday I work on forgiving him. Because I really do love him. My life didn't really mount to anything until I married him. He is the funniest man you would ever meet. He is working very hard every day now to prove that he LOVES ME and WANTS to be with me. I don't make it very easy for him at times either. Sometimes the most innocent comment or remark can set me off or my mind to reeling. We are neither one young any longer. He is 62 doesn't look it at all. I'm gonna be 58 on 10/27 and lucky for me and good gene don't look my age either. And this friend was 45. Now ladies tell me me true. Do you know any man that would turn down the advances of a very attractive younger women? Hell no! But I do fault him for not thinking with the correct head, and going for it.
Since April each day gets better sometimes I feel like it was all a dream, then the B---- will call me then it all come back.
The reason I am posting this is I wanted to know if there is anyone of you out there that have gone through this before ? I don't have any friends to talk to now. So sometime I don't know if I'm making the right decision or not. You know how we are are. It's always easier to heal in numbers. What I mean is when things like this happen one really needs that special friend to talk with and hopefully tell them if they are doimg the RIGHT thing or not.
I kicked him out and begged him not to leave a million times. When after all was said and done. HE JUST WANTED HIS CAKE AND EAT IT TOO!.
So I've had a little to much wine tonight and as always too much time to think.
Thank you for for listening to me and I hope that someone will respond to my post.

First off, Carole, you've come to the right place and we welcome you with open arms. If the wonderful ladies here don't help lift you up, it would be a total shock, because in my opinion, they are the greatest, most compassionate ladies I've ever met.

I am truly sorry your marriage has hit this bump in the road. It really lower ones self-esteem IF we let it. Since we will all give opinions, good and bad, you'll have to separate them and use the advice that is best for your situation.

One thing that I would do, is sever ties with this "friend." A true friend would never do this, no matter what and I believe it would be easier to rebuild the trust if she wasn't in your face all the time. Next (if you want you and your husband want this marriage to work) is just simple advice...talk with a good marriage councelor. Yes, I recommend counceling a lot. It does help put your feelings and thoughts in check. If he won't go with you, then please go alone.

I wouldn't want to give you more advice than that, because I really don't know ALL the facts and what led your husband to wander in the first place, even though it was wrong. Also, you did say that you've had too much wine and that will definitely cloud your thoughts.

I wish you all the best and hope things can work out to your benefit. God Bless!

[magnolia]

Hi Carole!

First of all, thank you for thinking enough of us to come "lean on our shoulders". It takes a brave person to post what you did and I admire and respect you for sharing.

I agree with Janet - cut the ties with your "friend"!! As long as she remains a part of your life, she will always bring the hurt she caused you to the forefront - a constant reminder of a very painful part in your life. As Janet said, no friend would do that to another and expect, when things are over, to remain friends. I realize it may be hard for you to do as the two of you were so close but it will go a long way in mending the damage between you and your husband. It will take a long time for you to regain the trust you once had for him and the life you have together - why "bog" it down with constant reminders from her?

Of course, we don't know what is truly in your heart and how you feel and who's to say what we would do if placed in the same position as you are in. Basically, what it comes down to is following your heart in this situation. What is it telling you to do? And trust in God to help you get through this ALWAYS helps!!

Know that we are all here for you - sending you lots of prayers and (((((hugs)))))!

God bless,
Suzi

im so sorry your going through this sending hugs your way. well first of all tell the so called friend to leave you and your husband alone. and i also think you should go and see someone but i do think you should both go, if your husband says no then he cant really want to make things work, if he is truely sorry and wants to show you how much he loves you he will go with you and after all it was he who betrayed YOU so he needs to talk about the reason he strayed so you can both work on it never happening again , if you dont get to the root of the problem how can you mend? how did you find out about them being together if you dont mind me asking? i guess you are also upset that he told you it was over but then carried on with her behind your back? so its not just him cheating its the lieing too you need to sort out. like its been said go see someone talk to them together, then and only then when you feel strong and have a clear mind think about how you feel and what YOU want.

[Mandy]

To start with i want to say, welcome to 4WT girl, and you have come to the right place...

Now to be very honest, this "friend" is not a true friend if she can do that to you! I would cut ALL ties with this lady, she doesnt deserve to be called "your friend" but that's just my opinion.
Not only did your hubby cheat on you, so did she and that's got to hurt.
In time to come, you will be able to forgive, but it will always be in the back of your mind.

As mentioned above, going to a counselor will give you strength as he/she will unfold things and put them in line for you to get a clear view of things.

Good luck and stay strong, we are here for you!

Oh I wish I knew what to tell you. All I can say is to stay strong...definitly cut ties with your friend. It will always make you think. I will keep you in my prayers and remember, we support you in any way we can!