I think it's over.

[Lindsey]

I don't know where to start. Last weekend I went home to visit my parents for the first time in months. I was on the computer, showing them on Google Earth all the places I want to travel, the places I am travelling (Mexico and NYC next year) and I decided I'm really really sick of where I live and it was always my dream to move places and travel around. It still is my dream. I decided I'm going to do it. I'm staying here for another year, and then I'm gone.
I got back here on Sunday night and called Kyle. He was in a bad mood and didn't want to see me. I felt like it was all my fault and I begged for him to come over. Finally, he did. I answered the door holding my dog, and he didn't even say hello, just walked right past me and up the stairs. Later he said he didn't want to hug me when I was holding "that" I told him I've decided to follow my dreams and go places, and he freaked out and asked what's the point of even dating then, because I know he won't ever leave his friends and family here.
We haven't seen each other all week, and we've barely talked. We just fight when we do. He says "Go then, be with your dog and meet some random guy and get married" And I'm SO sick of him not putting up with my dog. Last night I said "We're a package, if you want me, you need to want her"
This morning I emailed him and asked if we're still on for supper tomorrow night. He said "I don't think so, they won't let your dog into Red Lobster." and I ignored it. My roommate was getting on my nerves later and I asked him if we could go out tonight, and he said "I'm busy, go take your dog out somewhere" so I snapped and said "If you have anything else to say, keep it to yourself because I'm done."
We haven't spoken since.
I cried a little at work. I cried all the way home in my car. I've been sitting in my room now for 3 hours crying.
I'm sick of relationships. I'm sick of having nowhere to turn. I'm sick of my roommate being home and knowing what's going on and not even caring enough to knock on my door to see if I'm doing okay. I wish I could move tomorrow.