what in the world????!

so as most of you already know... i was having a confusing issue with my bf phil. well as im getting up the nerve (aka two glasses of wine) to sit down and have the "where are we going" talk. he BLOWS up. and not about anything to do with us and our future.

he starts by calling me lazy b/c i sleep in 15 minutes later than him and he has to take oscar outside. this is something that he brags about to everyone as in " im sucha sweet boyfriend that i take my gf's dog outside in the morning for her". and today he starts yelling about how lazy it is to sleep in until i have to get up????? im never late for work or anything... i guess he wants me to wake up at the crack of dawn and cook a 5 course breakfast?????

and then he starts yelling at me for missing work last week when my grandfather was in the hospital. first of all... you cant yell at me for that. and second of all i asked his permission and received it! at this point i just started bawling..and i NEVER cry.

then.. he starts yelling about how im the laziest person b/c i like to get 8 hours of sleep! <---- dont even know what that is???! he even had the nerve to say " you never do anything...anytime"

yes i am the girl that cooks, cleans, laundry, his bills, takes his car to the shop, fills out all his tax paperwork... and i work for him and do EVERYTHING! he shows up and thats it!... i was crushed when he said this!

so i say what about all of your clothes, food, etc? and he proceeds to say "you dont do a very good job...and i could do it better anyways"

all i could get out ...was hysterical crying and i havent spoken to him about it since. im so floored that i dont know what to do.... he is never like this... i guess he holds everything in... maybe he doesnt like me at all... kind of like the book that yall had me read.... this really sucks. just thought id get my feelings out to someone! thanks for listening!