I am so blessed

[Lindsey]

I know that most of my posts lately here haven't been so happy, and I've been feeling down on myself, but when I REALLY think about it, I am really blessed.

I have my Layla alive and with me every day. She might not be walking but she's the same dog she's always been. A couple of coworkers were talking to me about her this morning, and one asked if I still need to express her and I said yes. She said "Oh that's got to be quite the burden" and the other guy chimed in and said "Well, you know, they don't ask for much." How true. For the 4 years of happiness and joy and unconditional love I've gotten from Layla, the LEAST I can do is spend an extra hour or so a day doing her exercises and expressing her bladder to keep her comfortable and healthy. I don't want to think of her as a burden, she's a companion, and we will never give up on each other. I will be happy and love her if she doesn't improve another day. She's still perfect to me!

I have my family who I love so much still in my life. I know a lot of people who don't, and I know I am lucky to have that. I see my friends bickering pointlessly with their parents and I know I am lucky to be past that. After feeling like I was going to lose my mom to a stroke a year ago, I am trying to cherish every moment I have with both of my parents. I used to go weeks without talking to them, and now I call them every night. My brother won't talk to my mom anymore because of his girlfriend, and I feel bad for my parents about that. It just makes me want to be there for them more.

Scott is a great guy and I'm lucky to have him in my life. We have our issues and we have our fights but we always get over it and we love each other so much.

There's really not a point to this thread except that I feel I need to put this out in the open somewhere so that I don't forget it on days when I'm feeling down.