Such A Long Hard Day

[Janet]

As soon as I got done with my bus route and speaking with a first grade class about bus safety, I headed over to see Mom. I didn't visit her yesterday because I was planning to go after my afternoon route but it was so hot on the bus that I ended up with a queezy stomach.

When I got to the hospital Mom didn't look good at all. Her legs and arms are swelling. The infectious disease Dr. asked to speak with me so I knew it wasn't a good thing. She told me that once Mom was in the nursing home, that if she were to get worse, that she really didn't need to be brought back to the hospital....there is nothing left to be done for her. She said the C-diff infection was no longer responding to the antibiotics...that it didn't look like it was going to go away. Also....she said that we should consider stopping dialysis. That with her urine output...basically none...she would pass away within a week if it was God's will. I discussed it with my brothers and my older brother would like her to continue on dialysis for at least a week....so I said okay. Then we will decide what to do after that.

I got a call that Mom was going to be transferred to the nursing home at 5:30 PM. By the time the hospital had her ready to go she made it about 7:30. It was very hard for me....probably the hardest thing I've ever had to do. Sitting there filling out all the paperwork.

I know it's too late, but to make a longer story short, she is in the nursing home. She's really not knowing too much of what's going on right now, so I'll go back tomorrow afternoon as suggested by the Director of Nursing. She is such a wonderful lady and I already love her. Everyone there is so much more friendly and caring than at Mulberry.

Right now she is sharing a room with a pretty 'loud' woman named LaDora. She's very friendly and joins in every conservation...lol. Mom will be with her until Monday and then Mom will be moved into a private room for awhile. So....it's done...for now.

I have never cried this hard and for this long in my entire life. I'm exhausted.