Just Not Going To Work!

[Janet]

I took my Mother to the Dr. today. Again, we exchanged words in a not so kind way. She couldn't remember things that she needed to tell the Doctor so on our way home, I suggested that she start writing things down...dates, what happened, what Drs. said...etc. I told her that's what I do and that I have an index card in my purse that lists the medicines I take, how many doses and what size (like what milligram..). She just got real smart mouth on me and said "Well I'm sorry I'm not as smart as you are." I told her she didn't need to speak that way with me I was only trying to be helpful...she said something else smart (that I blocked, I guess) so I told her I was tired of trying....no more...she was on her own.

She leaves for Florida on January 5th and I hope she stays there. I will not be speaking with her before she leaves. I told my husband that if she calls..I'm not home, in bed, in the bath...whatever!!! Just too toxic for me to deal with and here it is 4 hours later and I'm still crying and upset. I don't need this.

I know she is my Mother and I do "think" I love her, but I know I don't like her.

Please don't think awful of me...I know we are suppose to Honor Thy Father and Thy Mother...but it is just too draining on me emotionally. I try, but nothing works, so I'm done.