sooooooooo ANGRY!

[Lindsey]

I am absolutely steaming right now. I know my posts lately have been basically about one topic, but believe me after this, i won't think about him again. Things happen when you love someone, and they happen a lot when you believe they feel the same way. It's a kick in the stomach when they tell you they were sleeping with you when they had no feelings left. It's a bigger kick in the stomach when they dump you and two weeks later you miss your period.
So today I couldn't stop thinking about it but i promised myself I wouldn't talk to him at all. By the time I got home I was freaking out all by myself and as soon as my brother left the house I called my ex. He was drunk in a truck with all his friends on their way to a hockey tournament. I told him I wanted to talk to him when he was alone but he said just say it so I told him what's going on. He LAUGHED at me and in front of all his friends he said I couldn't be pregnant because of... well he put it in pretty vulgar terms. I cried, and he got off the phone to pay attention to his friends. I can only imagine what they're saying about me now.
I called my best friend from back home and bawled. She told me to go out and get a test while my brother was still out of the house, so I would know for sure and wouldn't ruin my weekend thinking about it. So I went, all by myself, and took a pregnancy test for the first time ever.
I'm not pregnant.
But I'm f-ing mad.