Feeling like a Loser

[Ponyup]

I know I don't post too much anymore, but I still come & read. You ladies are the greatest & have a lot of knowledge.
My mom said something to me on sat. that the more I think about it the worst it makes me feel.
When my dad convinced me to come work for him it was in a customer service job. They had just bought another company & taken on a new type of customer (automotive). I was sent to this other company to learn about the customers. I had never done customer service before. I was nervous about actually interacting with the customers. But I was told I was just gathering information on the customers that they wouldn't all be mine & I would be trained when I returned, so that's what I did. Well that's not what happened when I returned. I was given all these customers. Automotive customers are very demanding. I asked for help & training weekly with no results. After about a month of 12hour days, sleepless nights, & weight loss. I decided I couldn't do this. So I told my dad, in tears & was moved to another place.

Well now everytime I mention wanting to do more with my life, my mom throws in my face the fact that I was given more & I couldn't handle it. Right now I work in a data entry type position. I wanna do more I just don't know what yet. But from what my mom said I will never get that chance in this company because I was given the oportunity & i couldn't handle it. I personally don't think this is fair. I feel with the right training & preparation I would of been fine. But I wasn't going to continue beating my head against a wall & costing the company money.

I guess I just needed to vent. I guess it just hurts because she continues to throw this one preceived failure in my face & i don't know how to handle it. I really wanna tell her to stick it & move on, but I was raised better than that.