It's going to be an awkward night

[Lindsey]

Well, tonight I'm going to a steak night to raise money for Kyle's hockey team. I was really excited about it until I found out my ex has decided to go, along with his new girlfriend. I don't know if I SHOULD care, but I do. I don't want to see him. It's not that I'm not over him because I definitely am. I don't like to say that I hate anybody, but I have a lot of angry feelings for him.
I didn't know how he treated me until after we were over and done with. Then I found out about all the things he was telling his friends about me WHILE we were together. Stuff he swore he wouldn't tell anyone, somehow all his friends knew about! Things tend to slip out of Kyle sometimes. A couple weeks ago we had a big fight and almost broke up in the parking lot of a restaurant where we met for lunch. He said that Ryden just told him that I'm not over him yet! I haven't talked to him in 6 months! Anyways, Kyle got over that I guess, but I had to come back to work with red eyes from crying. It just feels like Ryden being around in general just creates drama, and I feel that all of our mutual friends have completely untrue ideas of me now.
I'm feeling sick about tonight. If I talk to Kyle about it, he just thinks I'm not over Ryden. I just don't want him in my life. I don't know if I'm going to be able to grin and bear it tonight, or if I'm going to say something to him, or what. I want to be the bigger person and just let it go. Kyle can't stand his new girlfriend or the new group of friends they hang out with so luckily we probably won't have to sit with them.