A Blue Moment

[DianaB]

I'm having a blue moment, actually it's kinda' put a damper on my day. My family wanted to have an open invitation to anyone at church that didn't have anywhere to go today to come to my house. I didn't care if they invited anyone but I didn't want it to just be open to anyone. I already had my son-in-law's aunt and uncle and their family coming besides my own family.

Well, I talked to my Mom on Sunday and she mentioned that she didn't think that my brother had anywhere to go on Thanksgiving so I mentioned it later to my husband and, while he didn't say no, I got the general idea that he didn't want to my brother to come. My brother is very hard for my family to be around because he "puts on a show" for us. What you see is not my real brother. He's been into drugs but, according to him, he's doing better and I've heard that he's really trying. He is my only sibling, which makes it rather difficult since it's just him and me. I love him but I understand why my family feels the way they do.

My brother called on Tuesday to wish me a Happy Thanksgiving and I felt so guilty because I didn't invite him to come. But it ended up that he did have plans. I cried after I got off the phone with him. I just wish that things were different. Anyway I'm just sad that I didn't feel that I could invite him. Life can be so hard sometimes.