whats wrong with me?

[lynne b]

I have cancelled 2 Dr. app. for myself, just my yearly check up wich I haven't done for the past 2 years, mainly because I hate to take the time off work to go. Well Sadie (my yorkie) woke me up last night about 1am shaking her head wich I kinda thought it had been bothering her for a while now but tried to take care of it myself, but last night I noticed some dried blood in her ear so I wiped it out with alcohol on a cotton ball and she went back to sleep. Well first thing this morning I made an app. with her Dr. and I couldn't get out of work quick enough to get her in there. I didnt even blink an eye about leaveing work to take her to the vet.
So she has a yeast infection in her ear, they cleaned it out and gave her med's for it and I didn't even think twice about how much it cost ( she's my baby).
So why is it I am haveing a hard time getting myself to go to the Dr.? I even get paid for going because I have 2 ins. that will cover it. Just call me crazy LOL.
Lynne