Emotions

[Lindsey]

I absolutely HATE how emotional I can get.
About a week ago I happened to find on Facebook a long lost friend... so long lost that we haven't seen each other since KINDERGARTEN! He was my kindergarten best friend, I used to live across the street from his grandparents in a northern community, and we used to play every single day. Our families both ended up moving away right after kindergarten. We've been sending each other messages daily and getting to know each other and talking about how weird this is to know each other again after almost 20 years! I absolutely told Kyle about him because I was so excited about it.
Well, tomorrow Kyle and I are supposed to go snowboarding near the city where this guy lives, and he suggested we meet to say hello and maybe have a drink or whatever. I told Kyle and he freaked out on me, saying that's so creepy and "Does he know you have a boyfriend?!" and "It seems like he just wants to hook up."
I changed the conversation and he just kept getting mad and snapping about everything. A guy at work got a really good mortgage from this one bank with some program for new homeowners so I thought that's really interesting and I should tell Kyle! So I told him and he snapped again, saying "I think the person I talked to would know a little more. Isn't he the guy who just tells stories to try to look cool?" and I said "I'm sorry, I just thought you might be interested in checking it out. I won't say anything else." and he didn't reply and I haven't heard from him and I fought my tears at work and I fought my tears all the way home and I've been sitting here in my room crying for over half an hour now.
It shouldn't bother me as much as it is. I wish I could stop crying.