confused

There is a guy that I fell for when I was 14.we were together for over a year up till I was almost 16. My mother never approved so we had to hide our relationship. He would walk 3 hours just to see me and sometimes he couldn't see me when he got to where I lived. Things ended when my mother found out.we went a long time of no contact and I moved across the country. Now we eventually got back in contact but don't talk often.everytime we tried to talk we would end up in an argument about how we ended it. I can't figure out what to do sometimes I feel like he still cares. But then he shuts off into this egotistucal a**. Neither one of us is the same one that starts these arguments everytime. We just seem to fall into it. How do I realize this man still has feelings for me? Its not a matter of wanting to start something over with him. He has simply left me in a state of confusion.