I think I just did the stupidest thing ever

[Lindsey]

I don't know what's going through my head. I have been so stressed out. Layla has some sort of skin infection and I'm worried it's ringworm. If it's anything contagious then there goes my money I've spent on classes, when we've only been to one, and there goes the grooming appointment she had on Monday... so I called the vet this morning and made an appointment for 3 this afternoon, and since I stayed home until the vet's office opened, I was a half hour late for work. I got in in the middle of a meeting which I was late for so I had to stand. I have low blood pressure, and I can't stand for long periods of time. After about 45 minutes of people just going ON and ON about nothing, and other people jumping in, I was getting so frustrated and angry and then it hit me out of nowhere, I could barely see and I felt like I was going to fall over. I've passed out a million times before so I know the symptoms. As soon as I got that feeling I booked it to my office and sat down and put my head down. It wasn't getting better, it was getting worse. My shirt was soaked with sweat and I felt like I was about to throw up. So I went out and told the receptionist "I'm sick, I'm going home" and I walked out into the parking lot and by this time I could barely see anything, just blobs of color. I got into my front seat, and I passed out. And I can't believe I did this... I woke up, started the car, and DROVE home. I could see well, and I had my air conditioning on full blast so I felt awake, but I shouldn't have drove. I have passed out 4 times in a row before. Anyways, there was also construction happening and it took me about 3 times as long as normal to get home. And now I'm home, in bed, and I've lost it and I can't stop crying