prayers for my baby

[jrsygal37]

It's with great sadness that we had to put down our 17 month old Yorkie Jersey. As I'm writing this I am trying to so hard not to break down. My husband and boys got little Jersey for me last Mother's Day right after the vet told us that there was nothing more that could be done for Newman's Cancer. Newman was our first Yorkie. He had a rare cancer and we lost him at the age of 10. August 7 he was gone a year and a year and six days after we had to let our Jersey go.

Jersey was 10 weeks when we got her and our little joy. The past month she became very aggressive. The vet thought maybe she decided as she reached maturity that she did not like being with other dogs. I could not understand this as she was raised with the girls (our Yorkies) and loved them. Why all of a sudden would she attack them without provocation. Made no sense. I could go on with this but the short of it is the vet found an abnormalty in her brain and he also suspected liver problems. We were told that it was very hard to fix the brain and the liver and that we could go through thousands without being able to save her. He said that once the symptoms start and progress as they did with Jersey that the best thing to do is to let her go.

I don't know how I did it but we let our girl go Wednesday morning. Losing our Newman was devestating but we made sense of it. We were at peace with it. He was 10 yrs. old. Jersey was just a baby. The baby my boys and husband got me to ease the pain of losing Newman and now she's gone.

I am trying hard not to cry. I can't cry. I can't bring her ashes home. I have to act normal and happy because to save my sons from the grief they just went through losing Newman my husband and I told them that since Jersey decided she did not like being with other dogs that we left her with the vet tech who has no pets. That Jersey and her fell in love and that Jersey is happy now. Meanwhile I am dying inside. I've been driving to the beach and just sobbing.

I pray that my Jersey Girl is at peace and I pray to God that I can find make sense of this and find peace in what I had to do.

Please pray for my little girl. Please pray that she did not feel pain when she went. I don't think I will ever get over having to do this.

Elaine