I'm just so tired.....

[Marilyn]

Lately, I'm just soooo tired. There is nothing physically wrong with me. It's just that I'm tired. Tired of working so much, tired of the day to day. Laundry never ends. Cleaning & cooking never ends. I have to go to Corpus Christi for a meeting this morning. Zoe has had trouble with her ears for 6 months now, and three vets say she's fine. She's in my lap shaking her head right now because her ears bother her. I get so tired of giving her benedryl every evening and ear drops. I get to bed a realize I forgot and have to get back up. Sorry for complaining, but I'm tired of everything. Seems like everyone around me wants a piece of me. Marilyn I need you to help me with this. Would you do this for us. We need help, and you're so talented in this way. Please, isn't anyone else capable???

The American Cancer Society called a couple of nights ago asking me to send some fundraiser to 10 of my neighbors. I told them no, I can't, and the guy said we need your help. I told him EVERYONE needs my help. I'm strung out from helping people, and hung up on him.

Seems that everyone around me is relaxing watching TV, playing games, staying home with their baby, going to a trip somewhere. A dear friend called me yesterday and she is so envious of me. Of Me!! She want's a normal life again. The past two or so years she's been home, either pregnant or taking care of her little girl who will be 1 in August. I envy her. She gets to be home all day with her little girl. Go shopping when she wants, watch TV when she wants, work on crafts or whatever. I have NO time for myself. I still have a spa day my girls gave me. The gift card is two year old & I haven't found a free Saturday to go. Rex says I should go during the week but that means burning a vacation day.

I'm just having trouble right now finding the joy. I want to go on a vacation, but only have two vacation days left for the rest of the year.

I wanted to retire in a couple of years, but that dream is history now.

Please pray that I can find some joy.