Prayers for my girls please

[gja1000]

Lynne,
I'm so very very sorry this had to happen. It just isn't fair and it is so hard on everyone left behind. I hope you all can find the strength to heal little by little. It's just so shocking, I wish it didn't have to happen, ever for anyone. Diana, I think you are so right and I think it is great that you shared your story here with Lynne. Sometimes it feels like all the bad things happen only to "me", but it helps to know others have delt with difficult things and were able to get through them. It's a hard lesson to learn, but an important one.

[lynne b]

Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers, i do believe they helped today, things went better than we expected.

So many memories from when we were married, high school friends and kids that my kids grew up with and lost touch with over the years, people that his current wife had not met. So many emotions!!


I thought my youngest would have the hardest time, but it was my oldest that refused to go near her dad, not ready for tomorrow.

Diana, they had just taken him to the doctor last Monday to get some help, i'm not to sure about what happened but i think he was diagnosed as paranoid schiphrenic as well, he has an older brother who has this also. My oldest daughter is the fixer of all things in our family (as she is with my mom) and she feels that she failed her dad in not getting him the help he needed sooner.

Thank you again everyone for your thoughts and prayers.

[Lindsey]

Lynne, I am so sorry! I can't imagine having to go through something like this. You and your girls are in my prayers.

[DianaB]

He was paranoid schizaphrenic as well.......wow! I can't tell you what all you and the girls would have been dealing with in the future. My Dad was diagnosed when I was in high school so my Mom and I dealt with his problems for years and it was very hard. When my parents finally divorced his care fell on me......thank heavens Glen helped me out or I may have just joined Dad in his mental problems. So hard.

My Dad's thoughts were not real and I can't understand what it would be like to not be able to trust what your mind was telling you. Surely God has a special place for people who have mental illness.

Hugs and prayers for you and your family!

[Janet]

Thinking of you and the girls. Hoping all got through the services okay...such a sad time. I miss you.

[JJJ]

I am terribly sorry for the lost of your daughters father. What a tragedy.

Suicide is just so controversial. I am sure he didn't want his love ones suffering for him. The loss of someone is always hard and your daughters will come to peace sooner or later. I will send them all the positive thoughts and energy I can to all those involve in this tragedy.

Take care of yourself as well. XOXO

R I P

[lynne b]

Thank you again for all the thoughts and prayers. Yesterday was the funeral, so many emotions, seeing people that we knew when we were in school and married, that his current wife didn't know and of course the same for her, people that i didn't know. The girls did pretty good, although my oldest wouldn't even look at him or get close enough, she wanted to sit in the back of the room.

Only 1 brother and 1 nephew came, his own mother didn't come, she hadn't talked to him for a couple of years now, she will regret it some day.

I'm sad at the whole out come of this, but i am also mad at him for hurting the girls the way he did....i know he was sick and not thinking straight, but come on, he had no ins. no money and now my girls are stuck paying for their fathers funeral, me and my husband are paying for the flowers. Yes his wife works and i have told the girls that they really need to talk to her about this after some time has passed, the plots had to be paid up front so thats done and already the kids are struggling, we helped them through the funeral with $ but i can't expect my husband to pay for my ex's funeral.....i'm so mad that he has put the girls in this position.

Thanks again for the thoughts and prayers and letting me vent


oh one more thing, i had a lock box that i kept jewlery in, mine, moms and g-parents, birth cert, and some cash, went to get some of the cash for the gilrs yesterday morning and the box is gone, we have turned the house upside down looking for it and it's not here. I was just in it maybe a week ago, i put my mom's mother's ring in it, i sat on the floor in the closet sorting pic's for the girls Sun. and didn't even notice weather it was there or not. Nothing else is missing except the box.....no one even knew where we kept it or that we had one, no one around here knew about the death and that we would be gone except for regular work hrs, which we did not go to work those days. It's driving me crazy just wondering..did i do something with it or was someone really in my house, we always lock it up. I just hate loosing the jewlery for my girls, some of moms rings were to go to them. Yes we called the sheriff, but not much to go on.