It's going to be an awkward night

[judy]

Lindsey,

I had to end my second marriage and I did break his heart. He took an apartment in my building, and still lives here! (Everybody has a stalker in their lifetime). My first husband, on the other hand, left me with a 7 month old baby, for my best friend.

The truth is, it is easier to be the one who is left. You get to feel heart, cry, everybody feels sorry for you, they buy you presents, take care of you, etc., etc. You're better off in the end either way, of course.

Breaking up my my second ex was one of the hardest things I've ever done, but I had to be happy. That's my responsibility, and I take it very seriously. I feel that God gave me the gift of life. If I do anything but live it the best way I can, it's almost a sin.

But, I really, really understand your not wanting to break somebody's heart. It's so hard to do. It is better for both of you in the end.

Good luck with seeing him,

Judy

[Lindsey]

Thanks for sharing that, Judy. I think, sometimes, I just don't like myself enough to feel that need to be happy. I measure my happiness by how happy I make other people.
Last night went really well with Kyle. Times like that make me really not want to break up with him. We talked and laughed and joked around, then he fixed me some food and we cuddled in the dark, watching a movie. I hate that it's not like that all the time.