I'm Trying To Hang In There!

[Janet]

I hope I can get this typed. I'm so nervous right now and having a hard time not crying.

Yesterday started off pretty good, made a few posts here and then left for my bus route. When I got home I called my Mom like I do every morning to check on her. She sounded so bad, but luckily, my younger brother just happened to stop by. I called my older brother to help my younger brother get Mom to the ER. And then....afraid as I was about leaving Gidget...my Mom had to come first and I headed to the ER.

My Mom has kidney failure and is on home dialysis as you all know and also has congestive heart failure. She hooks herself up at night to go through her cycles and then unhooks of a morning. Mom let the line get contaiminated and now has peritonitis. It's a very bad and painful infection. They ran tests and found she also has some fungal infection too. I spent the entire day, until the afternoon bus route with my Mom. There were no subs to relieve me and well...that's a whole other story that I am totally pi$$ed about.

After the bus route my son was home (and very capable of whelping puppies) so I went back to the ER to be with Mom. I was able to bring her back to her house around 6:00 PM. She should be in the hospital, but refused. As much as I disagreed with her decision...I made sure she understood the consequences and then stood by her right to decide what she wants....it's her life.

She did well through the night and my older brother and sister-in-law are taking my Mom to the dialysis center this morning so I could stay home with Gidget. She is having a slight discharge so hopefully it's getting closer. Yesterday was her last due date. I still hear heartbeats thank God and there is a little movement. I really don't think it will be much longer, at least I hope not.

Thank you all for your prayers...I feel that between worrying about my Mom and Gidget I'm going to lose it. I just need to cry some more and get some sleep...too much going through my mind.