Layla

[Lindsey]

I am feeling exhausted physically and emotionally. I took her to acupuncture this morning and she loved it and relaxed and fell asleep. Now we're at work and she's asleep in her crate beside me but every time I look at her my heart breaks. I am not getting any real work done and there's a lot of pressure because I'm the only drafter here and people need their drawings done for reports that are due and I just can't concentrate.

[Gina]

I hope that the acupuncture works I hear that it is good I was thinking of going for acupuncture myself. Lindsey you are such a good mommy.. I didn't realize that you bring Layla to work, I haven't been on much and didn't know that you moved from the condo.. I imagine you do not live close to your mom or anyone who may be able to help out. It is tough working and taking care of Layla, you have a nice boss who allows you to bring her to work with you. I know it is very emotional and exhuasting since you are not sleeping well. Isn't there anyone who you can trust to relieve you during the day a little? Your job is important to and knowing how expensive surgery and their care is you cannot jeopardize your job. Your in a hard place.. I keep you in my prayers and pray that better days are coming..

[Lindsey]

Thank you Gina. I asked permission to bring her to work so I could do her exercises with her during the day. I have nobody near who is willing to take her for the day, except the vet. She let us know she would take her any time as long as we let her know ahead so she'll make sure she's around to express her bladder etc, so her techs don't have to. And that will also cost money of course. I am not near my parents, and my mom hasn't even made an effort to see my new house yet, even though my dad has come in and my mom decided just to stay home instead.

The only other person around is my grandma, but she has a busy life herself and I would not want to put this burden on her. I am still finding it really hard to express Layla's bladder and I know if my grandma couldn't do it, she would just feel terrible.

I figured we're going to be spending about $1000 a month for her physical therapy and acupuncture. We already spent thousands on the surgery. But this is my baby and I love her more than life. I need her to heal and will do whatever it takes.

[Janet]

Lindsey....I have no other advice for you....the ladies here can't be topped, their advice is wonderful. Instead...know that You and Layla are in my prayers.

[Lindsey]

I'm pretty sure this isn't the right time to find out that Scott took another girl on a date a week and a half ago to an event I decided at the last minute not to go to. So he decided at the last minute to invite another girl to go with him and not mention a word of it until today. I feel sick.

[Blueyes]

NO!!! What???? There is probably a completely rational explanation for this. Oh Lindsey, I wish I could come up there and help you!

[Lindsey]

His friends do this stupid awards thing and it's a very formal event and I was so tired I couldn't go but he decided he would still go alone. I spent the night cuddling with Layla on the couch and going to bed early while texting him wondering when he'd be home because the roads were icy. He just asked me today how Saturday is going to work out because this girl wants to take him out to eat Saturday night as a thanks for taking her to those awards with him. And she's not part of that group, he invited her at the last minute to go with him. And now he asks if he can see her Saturday night if I'd be okay with Layla because he'd really like to go. I don't know what to do. I am just numb. He's trying to call me at work but I don't want to get into this in front of my coworkers. I'm trying to stay calm. I don't know him.

[DianaB]

I think that you've had some wonderful advice......I'm here to give you a hug and Layla a hug Oh.....and Scott a hug

[Lindsey]

So many people right now are telling me that it would be best to just put Layla down. I can't even listen to them. My heart is so broken.

[Blueyes]

Good Grief!! She just had surgery and she needs time to heal! As long as her pain is controlled and she's not suffering, there is no reason for her to be PTS. But if the time DOES come, you will know it...YOU are her mommy.