Layla

[Gina]

Oh Lindsey thats encouraging news. Baby steps remember!! I have her and you in my prayers.. Continue loving her thats all you can do at the moment , she know your the best mommy .. She will get there.. Keep the faith...

[Janet]

Keep healing Layla!!! We're all praying for you!!

[judy]

Dogs live in the moment, and she may not even miss running around right now.
I think that you do mind more than she does. Not that I blame you Linds - I would be just as heartbroken, but it is too soon to give up hope. I really have to agree with Gayle that this doctor is a bit negative. Hope keeps us going.

She might be perfectly happy just as she is right now. She really is in no pain, is spending all of her time with you, and it sounds like her spirits are good. Of course, we will all be praying fiercely for a full recovery! I think she will be fine given time!

[Lindsey]

Thank you all so much. I took her to reiki alone today and I was amazed... instead of her usual squirmy, uneasy self in new surroundings, I put her on the couch between us and the woman started working on her, and she laid right down against my leg and barely moved. Every once in awhile she'd jump up and look at the woman's hands, and the woman just laughed! She said she probably feels the energy and thinks "What the heck is this person doing to me?" Anyways, I was so impressed with everything today. She said that Layla seems to trust her a lot more and just let the energy flow into her body. After about 25 minutes, she finished with Layla and asked me if I had ever felt Reiki energy before. I said no. She told me to stay where I was and she came around behind me. All I could feel was heat through my head and down my neck. It was weird!

Layla peed a bit on her leg when I expressed her last so I washed her off and decided it was probably time to change her blanket in her crate anyway, since it hadn't been changed since last weekend. So I got her a new fleece blanket and thought, I wonder if a pillow would fit in there? I grabbed an old pillow too, and it fits perfectly! So now she has a nice soft place to be laying. She seems to like it so far.

Yesterday I met some women from town at a clothing party the woman next door was hosting. That might be a topic for a new thread later! Anyways I tried to talk about Layla with some of them and I think they just considered me the crazy dog lady One woman said "Oh your dog is your baby until you have a real baby and then it's just a dog." and she was laughing about bringing her baby home and being so worried about the dog being okay with it, and now she just thinks it was hilarious to care that much When I told her about Layla being paralyzed and we're spending most of our time looking after her, she immediately looked for a way to get out of the conversation.

I'm so glad I have so many of you here who understand the love I have for Layla.

[gja1000]

Lindsay, I wish so much that all of us lived closer to each other. We indeed do understand how much Layla means to you and how much you love her. We all would do exactly the same thing for our dear furbabies. I wish we were closer to be able to help you with Layla. It is overwhelming to have her so dependent on you. I understand. But you are doing such a good job and I know Layla is very very happy. It is hard for you to never have a break and I wish I were closer to "babysit".

I'm really glad to hear the last reiki session went well. I know that it will help. I hope you have a good week.

[judy]

People can sometimes be intentionally cruel. Why would this woman tell you this when she knows that you are so concerned about Layla, love her as your baby, and give her healing all of your time. Most people do not stop loving their pets with all of their hearts once they have children.

I know a lot of my friends, who are mothers and grandmothers, who discuss their dogs with as much love and concern as you feel about Layla. Whoever I talk to asks about "the babies," meaning Max and Annie. I discuss my daughter and grandchildren, but my heart is big enough to love them all!

Next time, ask if her if her heart can only contain a certain amount of love, and could not expand to still love her pets?

[Lindsey]

Thank you Judy. I think when I have children I will love them a lot, but I can't say I would love Layla any less and think she's "just a dog". I have ALWAYS loved animals more than I love most people. I have always been able to bond with animals better than with people. I don't think I could ever look at her and say she's JUST an animal, and not as important as anyone else in my family.

I cried on the way to work today. I woke up being happy but Scott was in a terrible mood, and there was a lineup at the college for dropping off animals. We were supposed to stay there with Layla but it was already past 8 (we both start work at 8) so Scott asked if we could just leave her there in her crate in the waiting room. He ran out the door and I didn't even get a chance to say goodbye to her, just left her there alone with tons of other people and dogs all over the place. I felt like I was walking on eggshells around Scott and couldn't say a thing because he'd snap. He said he didn't sleep well... well he was asleep at least 2 hours before I was, and in bed longer this morning too. Anyways, by the time we were a block away from work, tears just started pouring. My heart is so broken over Layla and it is so hard for me to push through every day.