Alone tonite & missing my husband

[Janet]

Originally Posted by khardy57

Last year when Mark died in October, the holidays seemed to pass by in a blur. Thanksgiving was OK yesterday until everyone left and I've been really down since. Tonight, I just want to sit and cry and I don't have time for that. I need to clean house and think about getting out my Christmas decorations tomorrow.

I just don't have the heart to do any of those things. It all feels so empty.

I don't know if I can do this. I've kept myself busy since he died and haven't really given myself time to just be alone because I knew I'd sit and dwell on it. Well, that time has come and ya'll, I'm not making it.

I feel like I don't have a reason to BE. Mark always encouraged me in anything I wanted to do. He made me feel like I was the most important person in the world, the smartest, the prettiest, the best. I had it all and now it's gone and I'm lost.............I can't find myself....................

I sure wish I was there to wrap my arms around you girl!!! I know it has to be so terribly hard for you especially at this time of the year. You need to let yourself cry and help release some of those feelings you've been holding on to. I wish I could wave a magic wand and make things better for you...I would you know. I've always been told that when someone is feeling alone, to help someone else. Maybe you can help someone who is feeling alone too. It could really help lift you up.

You are a wonderful, loving, compassionate woman, you've proven that in your posts. I'm know someone needs you to help give their heart a smile. Sometimes it can be a simple "hello."

You do have a reason to "BE." Our Lord has a special plan for each of us and he will never, ever give us more than we can handle. I'm here for you sweetie, whenever you need me. ((((((hugs)))))) and more ((((hugs)))). I'll keep you in my prayers.