oh my god

[Tink]

I'm sorry Lindsey!
HUGS

[AngieDoogles]

I'm so sorry!! I wish there was something I could do for you, but all I can say is that we'll be here anytime you want to post about what's going on or how you're feeling.

*Hugs*

[Lindsey]

I am still in shock and i feel like throwing up. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to think. A friend just took me out and I had a coffee and I shouldn't have because now i'll be up all night. How do I go to work tomorrow and act like there's nothing wrong?
Honestly he was my everything. I know it wasn't even that long, I dated one guy for 3 years and never felt this strongly about him. I loved this guy and I knew it from the first night I was with him. How does one person just stop when the other person feels stronger? Every relationship I've been in has been so bad, he's the first guy who didn't cheat on me, and i've been raped before, lied to constantly, laughed at and belittled by every guy. and it's not just that he didn't do those things, he treated me like GOLD. He brought me into his group and his friends were my friends, his family was my family. Now they're all gone. I don't have their numbers because we all hung out when he called them. I moved to this city for him. Now I'm all alone. He cried when he told me.
I need some girlfriends here so bad. The guy friend who took me out tonight just doesn't know how to handle this. We sat there while he talked about his friends and I shook and tried to hold in my tears. Last night I happened to get back in touch with my "sister", my best friend, whom I haven't talked to in months. I told her he had been acting weird and she told me "If it's not right it's not right. I've learned not to pray to fall in love with someone, just pray for someone to love you as much as you love them" For now I think I'll just pray for the strength to get through this, even though I haven't prayed in years.

[Mandy]

Ohhhh Lindsey, i'm so sorry this happend! Hugs to you, we are here if you want to talk!

[khardy57]

Ah, Lindsey - what a jerk he is! Especially after you uprooted your whole life for him.

I'm so sorry this happened to you........

[Janet]

Sorry you're going through this Lindsay. I know it hurts, but keep busy. When you're busy, it's hard to think about our troubles. You're young, you have your whole life ahead of you, God has a plan, and this guy obviously isn't in it. Try to find strength to put one foot in front of the other and go on. There is really someone special out there for you.

[Lindsey]

It's so hard to believe there's someone out there for me. My friends are all getting married and having kids already and the one guy that I truly honestly thought I would be with forever is now gone. I'm not going to marry him. I'm not going to have kids with him. I'm not going to be part of his family anymore. I have to start all over and I am so sick of dating. I just don't want to try anymore at all. I'm too scared of getting hurt. I was like that before I dated him and my walls were all up and guys didn't mean anything to me, I would use them because I was so used to them just using me, and it's rare for me to find a guy that I actually LIKE. Me and him just clicked and I could be myself and he made me laugh so hard all the time and I always had a smile on my face when he was around. I didn't sleep last night. I'm still crying. I have to leave for work in half an hour.