oh my god

[Lindsey]

I texted him today. I didn't want to but I couldn't stop it. I asked him for his friend's girlfriend's number because we always got along so well and I need some girlfriends in this city. I also asked if I could stop by next week after I've calmed down enough and drop off his stuff from my house. He told me don't worry about it and I said, no, I don't want it here. He apologized again and said if he could hurt for me he would in a second. It's killing him that he broke my heart. I wish I could feel better RIGHT NOW and be over it. From how he sounded today he's sure he made the right decision. And he told me that as soon as I stop hating him, the offer to be friends still stands. I don't want to not have him in my life, but I don't know how soon i'd be okay with hanging out with him and not being jealous of other girls around him.